Winter's Tale

A story: Page one

winter2 — Mon, 23 May 2011 22:13:22 +0000

The forest was thick with screaming. Men were helping their women who, in turn, were ushering children to safety. The lucky ones had already climbed trees before the Knights entered the forest but others had been dragged down, beaten, and questioned about the whereabouts of one of their kin. Still others were rushing away from the Knights, protecting the one the knights were seeking.

And she was almost to her secret tree. At first she refused to run away, the soldier in her wanting to kill the Knights for harming her people but her family and friends insisted she run – the King wanted her and that was never good. A branch snapped ahead of her and she quickly changed direction, running west of her tree and hoping to throw the Knights off track. She knew she wasn’t quick enough to make it to safety so she might as well get caught and protect her people from further torture.

She started to climb an old oak tree when a hand grabbed her and yanked her away. A Knight was brandishing a sword in her face, his own hidden by the mask that marked the King’s first General: intricately patterned with flames. The General smacked her across the face with the butt of his sword.

•••

General Letholdus threw down the girl from the forest into the middle of a large room. His King was at the front on his throne with three men to his left and two on his right. Around the other three walls, hidden, stood hundreds of Knights, dirty from the forest. The King glanced up from cleaning his sword to look at the girl from the forest. She wore a light blue tunic, beige tights, and a dark green robe; the hood was over her face.

“I found her, my King.” General Letholdus bowed then joined his two Captains to the right of the King’s throne.

“The boys of the prophecy have been found.” The King spoke to the girl. “They’ve just become of age and I need you to guide them through their training. I want to have a proper fight before I kill them. I will not take advantage of knowing their powers and kill them when they are weak.”

“If I train them, they will have more powers than you and you will not survive.”

“I trust you to not train them too much. Just enough for a fair fight.”

“Why me? There are others in your command who are more powerful,” She raised her head to the King. “And more trustworthy than I.”

“You may bring along three friends to help train these boys on your journey home. You may tell them whatever story you like as long as you don’t betray my trust.”

“Again, I hate you and your rule. Why should I do as you ask?”

“Because I have just found out your secret, Immortal.”

Here are some things you need to understand about me:

winter2 — Sun, 27 Mar 2011 16:22:18 +0000

I have insomnia, depression, and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. They all work together to make each other worse (or more pronounced). I also don’t eat enough, I don’t feel like doing anything besides staring at a computer screen, and I am a loner who hates being around people so I don’t go out much. These last three things occur because of parts of the first two. Actually, depression starts this all off:

Symptoms of depression as found online

difficulty concentrating [I can still concentrate well], remembering details [I have an eidetic memory], and making decisions [Yes, this can be difficult even for simple things like what to eat]
fatigue and decreased energy [Yes, because of not sleeping well]
feelings of guilt, worthlessness, and/or helplessness [I've been made fun of all my life so I feel unimportant]
feelings of hopelessness and/or pessimism [Hmm... negative views of the world... Yea, I guess so. I hate people in general because of their selfish attitudes]
insomnia [I have this], early-morning wakefulness [Yep, I sometimes wake up at 1 am or 4 am but it is mainly from my roommate making noise], or excessive sleeping [on the weekends when I can sleep in until 11 am]
irritability [I get snappy at little things], restlessness [I am usually dancing to my own music in my head and I always need to be doing something with my hands. When I watch a movie at the theatre, I need to be eating popcorn and when I am watching a movie at home, I get out cards and play solitaire.]
loss of interest in activities or hobbies once pleasurable, including sex [Not interested in sex period. Other activities: I am not motivated to start reading or writing or walking or hanging out with friends but when I get into it, I'm okay. Unless it is hanging out with other people. People piss me off.]
overeating or appetite loss [Appetite loss - I have gotten in the habit of not eating because when I tried to at home, my dad got angry for making noise or eating junk. Here at school, there is not much variety to eat so I am getting tired of eating the same thing over and over again.]
persistent aches or pains, headaches, cramps, or digestive problems that do not ease even with treatment [my back hurts upon waking up, my shoulders hurt throughout the day, I don't eat enough or right so my stomach hurts occasionally, and my brain sometimes gets these bursts of pain that occur then disappear as quickly as it came.]
persistent sad, anxious, or “empty” feelings [I never know what I am feeling - I can't distinguish between sad, happy, ecstatic, depressed, content, confused, etc. I'm just sort of there.]
thoughts of suicide, suicide attempts [I think about how certain people would react if I died and that doesn't bother me as much as the thought of what people might to do all of my belongings (burn, give away, sell, ignore) I would never kill myself because I can't bear leaving my books and movies and computer and Yoshi Bird, and mom, and brother...]

Warning signs of suicide with depression include:

a sudden switch from being very sad to being very calm or appearing to be happy [not a suicide warning with me because I have to act happy around people or my father will get angry.]
always talking or thinking about death [The concept is intriguing to me since we don't know what happens to the person...]
clinical depression (deep sadness, loss of interest, trouble sleeping and eating) that gets worse [I don't know about these getting worse but they are present...]
having a “death wish,” tempting fate by taking risks that could lead to death, like driving through red lights [Not present]
losing interest in things one used to care about [We went over this]
making comments about being hopeless, helpless, or worthless [My boyfriend is very sweet and he compliments me and lets me talk and express my opinion but I am not used to it so I clam up and let him make decisions and shy away at his compliments saying I'm ugly and no, I'm not a great person...]
putting affairs in order, tying up loose ends, changing a will [I've thought about what I want in my will... but never have I written it up or 'put affairs in order']
saying things like “It would be better if I wasn’t here” or “I want out” [I have thought that life would be unchanged with me gone]
talking about suicide [Nope]
visiting or calling people one cares about [Only because I am one the other side of the country from them, now. I miss my Californians...]

So, I don’t eat, am not motivated, can’t sleep well, and hate people because of my depression. The OCD comes from having nothing to do but stare at my surrounds and notice things that are out of place and when I am watching a movie, I organise my desk again…

I hope you understand my behavior better now.

For A Show Titled “Glee” Some Of The Content Is Not Very Gleeful

winter2 — Mon, 07 Feb 2011 22:03:59 +0000

Heart attacks, harassment, cheating, criminal acts, evil cheerleading coach, depressed/controlling ex wife among others. xD

But yea. That’s all I have to say on that subject. The rest of this blog will be about… Hmm. Pie.

I like pie. So does Sylar. He likes peach pie. I like peach pie ice cream. Seriously, find it and try it. I also love apple pie (as we saw in my last post I just love apples) and banana bread and apple cake and pumpkin pie and chocolate cake and I guess I am just naming yummy desserts now. Sugar cookies, oatmeal cookies, my grandpa’s chocolate chip cookies, chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream, mint ice cream, strawberry ice cream…

Do you know how freaking awkward it is to have your YouTube video end enabling you to hear your roommate Skyping with her boyfriend? I don’t even want to write what she said. Gross though.

Anyhow (because Darren just said it in this video), I want dessert. And pizza. And… a boyfriend. Valentine’s Day sucks when you are single. But I am a loser and nobody likes me so I get to live life all alone.

*sigh* Goodnight, dragon. (Actually, I am going to dinner so that I can be done when roomies go and I can have the place to myself for a bit…)

When Life Hands You Lemons – Make Apple Juice

winter2 — Sun, 06 Feb 2011 20:21:59 +0000

I love apple juice...

Yea. I watched A Very Potter Musical and A Very Potter Sequel long before Darren Criss was on Glee. But I watched part of one episode of Glee before AVPM. Glee scared me. Now that I have seen the Darren episodes, I am utterly confused. And I have been bored all weekend so I have been watching Glee. I am a Gleek now. xD But I still love Darren pre-glee. And apple juice. It is frakking delicious.

I don’t like lemons that much. I like lemonade though. Not so much regular lemonade as strawberry lemonade. Yumm. Apple juice still pwns. When we were younger, my mom, brother, and I were in Tae Kwon Do. Near our dojo was a Briarpatch so we went there for snacks and drinks either before or after class. My brother found this brand of apple juice that he liked. It was in a small, cute bottle. So my dad (being weird like always) called it a “little itty bitty baby apple juice”. We’ve been saying that ever since. We have to say in it a baby voice…

Apple juice has been my favourite fruit drink for years. I hate oranges and orange juice and lemonade by itself. I can’t stand cranberries. I just LOVE apple juice. I am a Mac user so that might have something to do with it. Though you’d think the people who love apples are Windows users because they munch the apples to get rid of them… but I love apples and Macs and apple juice and Darren Criss. Brian Rosenthal more but Darren is hilarious and talented and Harry Freakin’ Potter!

I don’t know what the point of this post is… Megavideo said I needed to wait 30 minutes to watch more Glee so… I’m wasting time. xD I don’t like all apples though. Green ones mainly. The really dark red ones don’t taste good. I like the light green. And the MacBook Pros. Seriously though, drink more apple juice. “Research suggests that apple juice increases acetylcholine in the brain, resulting in increased memory.” So, BOOYAH! I have an excellent memory and I drink apple juice.

Also, Red Vines. Gotta love ‘em.

Not Getting on Facebook Today…

winter2 — Fri, 04 Feb 2011 17:33:47 +0000

1. My bio teacher rocks my socks off! Last week, I needed to talk to her so I go up to her after class and I see that she has the Elder Wand on her stack of books. Then today, she is lecturing about proteins. To make her point about all the different proteins that can be put together to make completely different polypeptides, she said the proteins were like Legos. What made it better was her saying the polypeptides were “the Harry Potter castle or an Atlantis… dome… thing.”

2. I was just in the dining hall eating and it was pretty empty because most people go home for the weekend. There were four guys a couple tables away and when one got up for more food, he left his phone behind. He came back and started freaking out because his phone was gone. One of his friends called it and the guy listened real hard for it. He heard it so it couldn’t be far away. Looked all over the table, his pockets, his bag. Finally realised it was coming from the napkin dispenser. He got mad at his friends but said “I give you an A for creativity.”

3. I got in the elevator in the dorm after dinner and there are two guys in there (wearing matching shirts!). One notices my Yoshi shirt and says “Nice shirt. I love Yoshi. Do you play it on N64 by chance?” I said yes and he said “Hells yea that shit’s for real!” And we talked more about how cute and awesome Yoshi is because he’s just there being a dinosaur all like “I’m a dinosaur and I’m going to do whatever the hell I want.” And all you girls wonder why I play video games…

4. Bethany, Ashley, and probably Megan went somewhere this weekend. THEY FUCKING LOCKED THE BATHROOM STALL!!! Our bathroom has two sinks, a small shower, and a bathroom stall like a public bathroom complete with lock and no lid on the toilet and that weird bar flusher. Well, the stall is closed and the lock is through the thing on the other side. No idea how they accomplished it. No idea how to fix it. No idea if it was an accident of if they wanted to mess with me. Either way – FUCKING PISSING ME OFF!!!!

Edit: Climbed on small bench in enclosed thing before shower, leaned over, and used a hanger. I got to use the toilet, thank you very much.

University Life in Farmville, Virginia

winter2 — Wed, 02 Feb 2011 19:20:44 +0000

1. Secret societies make me laugh. As quoted on Wikipedia: “Students often step on the crowned sevens around campus for good luck or avoid them for the risk of having blue children.” Yeaaaa. Okay. xD

2. My dorm has three entries, two direct. One is direct from the hall into my room. The other direct way is gotten to through the direct door into the room next door then going through the small, shared bathroom. So I have one direct roommate (Bethany) and two suite mates (Ashley and Megan). The main door and the bathroom door are rattling like someone is trying to open them. The main door is locked and the bathroom door likes to stick sometime but you never know… I think a human would try harder to get the door to open (Bethany enters from Ashley and Megan’s side sometimes when the arrive at the same time). It is not very windy (the window is open) so I don’t think that is the reason. I also believe the door across the hall is rattling. So maybe the infamous ghost of South Cunningham is disturbing my blogging…

3. One evening after it snowed (the snow had pretty much melted, though) I went out to get a smoothie. These two boys ran past in shorts and no shirts. I thought *I* was the weird one until I saw them.

4. In California, people would sometimes say “y’all” (mind you, this is NORTHERN California!) so I was used to the word. But here, EVERYONE says it. In Southern accents. I think I may have confused Bethany when I said “you guys” to her when talking about three girls… New York was SUPER cool though! I saw real life Jews in the beard and hat and coat with accents and IT WAS AWESOME!

5. I saw a real dog sniff a real fire hydrant (as opposed to observing that behavior in movies and television shows) so my life is now complete.

6. The doors and window are now rattling. But I am not feeling any wind. I can see the tree moving outside though. Strange weather here.

My inner thoughts while walking from my dorm to the Lancer Café and back

winter2 — Tue, 01 Feb 2011 03:16:15 +0000

Because you have always wanted to know the inner workings of Kyriè Sierra Dorkenpork. Dorkenport. Davenportski. Dave-en-port. Well, whatever my name is here is what I was thinking:

First some backstory… This chick from my floor whom I didn’t know previously just walks into my room via the bathroom and starts up a conversation about where I am from and how I like it here and classes and staplers. Then she drags me to her room so I can see it (her roommate just moved out so she has this giant space to herself!). She says she has all this room and no idea what to do with it. I say, “Have a giant dance party.” and she asks if I do raves because I look like a raver. I go back to my room, grab my shoes, then head outside to get some water bottles.

NOW what I was thinking:

I apparently look like a raver… well I am one. I rave. And rant. About staplers. On facebook. A bit too much. I need to stop and remember that twitter is not faceboo– shizza! FACEBOOK is not TWITTER! There we go. Geez. Oh look it’s raining. Well, sprinkling. And it is kind of cold. But oh well. I am thirsty. I go here too often. Soon they will know who I am… Stalkers. Okay, resist the temptation to buy junk. Ooh, rootbeer. Resist the temptation! Ooh, skittles! No. Bad. Resist the junk! Ooh, NutriGrain bar! Wait. Wait a minute. Hmm… Accio Oreo Double Stuff! Nope. Those are regular Oreos. This place should have double stuff. Just for me. And Red Vines. Does the east coast not have Red Vines? It’s like trying to find rootbeer in NYC: a search ending in heartache. Okay, person texting. Are you going through the door? Are you moving on? Stop walking so slow so I can know if you are going to stop in front of the door, finish your text, send it, and exit OR stop in front of the door, finish your text, send it, then move away and make me feel like an idiot waiting for you when I could have used the time to go through one of the other doors available with no slow walking texters in front of them! Gah. Stairs still have salt on them. Cold. Don’t walk on the grass! I’m lazy so I am taking the elevator. Oops. People just came through door and elevator closed. You snooze, you lose. Back in room. Yes! I should post this on facebook. But I post too much… Oh, well. It has been fun. And we should do this again, sometime. Especially you Emma! And Hayley. You guys made it totally awesome! <3

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winter2 — Fri, 21 Jan 2011 16:09:53 +0000

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Five days into 2011 – let’s sum up 2010!

winter2 — Wed, 05 Jan 2011 21:19:28 +0000

1. What did you do in 2010 that you’d never done before?
Hmm… Got accepted to college.
2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don’t make new year’s resolutions. But I did for ’11.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Nope.

5. What countries and/or states did you visit?
NorCal and SoCal (since they are already in the talks of splitting up… ><)

6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?
Money. A boyfriend. A job.

7. What date from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
…

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Getting accepted to college.

9. What was your biggest failure?
I lost The Game.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yes I got pneumonia in the summer.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Red Vines.

12. What was the best thing someone gave you?
New camera

13. Were you lucky in love or lucky in cards?
To quote the song: Love Stinks. I don’t play cards. Only 18. Was 17 in 2010.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Books and food. Culture Shock Frozen Yogurt is yummy!

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows midnight showing.

16. What song will always remind you of 2010?
Ke$ha’s ‘we r who we r’ AND/OR anything from A Very Potter Musical/Sequel

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

Older or wiser?
Older because of my birthday… ><

Thinner or fatter?
Thinner? Same? I don’t know. I lost weight when I had pneumonia.

Richer or poorer?
Poorer.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Acting, writing, packing…

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
sleeping in

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
With family

21. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?
With friends from PAG (performing actor’s guild)

22. Did you fall in love in 2010?
meh.

23. Did you fall out of love in 2009?
no

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Got into Psych, Prison Break, and still loved CSI, NCIS, NCIS: Los Angles, Criminal Minds, The Mentalist
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Uhh… no?

26. What was the best book you read?
Cirque du Freak series

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
A Very Potter Musical count? D

28. What did you want and get?
New camera

29. What did you want and not get?
lots of money

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Toy Story 3, The Sorcerer’s Apprentice, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, Inception
31. What did you do on your birthday?
Dressed in a poodle skirt and ate at Mels Diner with friends also dressed ’50s/’60s

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
More money

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?
Very Kyriè-esk

34. What kept you sane?
Nothing

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Johnny Depp

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
DADT. LGBT rights generally.

37. Who did you miss?
My ex. But my aim’s getting better! hahahahaaa

38. Who was the best new person you met?
All my PAG peeps!!!!!

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010:
Don’t procrastinate.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
“I know I don’t deserve these/stupid rules made by the Dursley’s here on Privit Drive/Can’t take all of these muggle/but despite all of my struggles/I’m still alive/I’m sick of summer and this waitin’ around/man it’s September and I’m skippin’ this town/hey it ain’t no mystery/there’s nothing here for me now/I gotta get back to Hogwarts/I gotta get back to school/I gotta myself to Hogwarts/where everyone knows I’m cool/back to witches and wizards and magical beasts/to goblins and ghosts and to magical feasts/it’s all that I love and it’s all that I need/at Hogwarts, hogwarts/I think I’m going back!” pretty much that whole song because in 2010 I graduated high school, took a semestre off school, and freaking NEEDED to get back to school I was SO BORED!!!

Because my brother challenged me, I am playing it again

winter2 — Tue, 14 Dec 2010 01:18:28 +0000

Legend of Zelda Ocarina of Time. A few months ago I beat the game with all (except one because of a glitch) upgrades and all items and equipment and gold skulltulas and hearts, etc. My brother then said I should try to beat the game with only the three hearts we have at the start.

So, I deleted my old game (there are only three slots and I didn’t want to delete my brother or dad’s in case they got angry) and created a new one. The name is Link. I started the game, got annoyed with Navi again, destroyed Queen Gohma inside the Deku Tree. I did not pick up the heart container. I then made my way to the castle where I met the princess. Then I went to Goron City, etc. etc. beat King Dodongo and did not pick up the heart container.

Then I decided to do some side quests. Like borrow the masks and get equipment upgrades. I did this so the glitch could not get the better of me [the glitch is that I can't get a certain Deku... seed? nut? upgrade when trying to get after becoming an adult then going back to kid]. So I got what I could. I still need to sell the masks until I get the Mask of Truth then I can get the last upgrade for young Link gear.

And unfortunately, I needed to play Saria’s Song to get the Skull Kid in the Lost Woods to like me and he gave me a piece of heart for that. Then I could talk to him and sell him the skull mask… Damn.

The fairy atop Death Mountain will give me the magic bar which I will need so I will get it but keep it small. So I start making my way up there and… The falling rocks kill me. First time I die in this game and I am killed by ROCKS. Gah!

More later… Since I turned the game off and must pack and clean and eat.